Felicia's Open Book of Puzzles and Mazes

Moving On!

2009-06-30T12:55:00.002+12:00

Hey hey hey!

I will no longer update entries in blogspot... Because... Well, you can find out why by changing your links and following me on http://feliciapeh.livejournal.com/ ;)

( kononnya wanna add in elements of suspense... =P )

So... Sayonara blogspot!

Dreams~

2009-06-26T11:13:00.004+12:00

There are times like this... when I get a little too overwhelmed by my thoughts...

To be precise... I felt that I have sold myself to the government @_@

Having just 5 months left in this place on earth called Auckland, I can't help but ponder about my future, and what I'm leaving behind... To be honest, I never thought I will fall in love with this place so deeply... Reflecting on the early stages of my arrival, I always felt that this place will never be a home but just a location that held memories of a phase of my life... But then, I came to love the people, the clean fresh air, the mind-blowing scenery, the consistent welfare support by the government, the great emphasis of the education system and values, the equality of opportunities, the quality of life... I have grown so much in this place, more than I could ever be for my past 20 years of life...

How did all these emoness started? Exactly a day ago, when we had the musical brainstorming meeting.

Jun Bin, the art director was sharing about why he forgo his engineering degree, and took up diploma in drawing animation, which could assist him in sketching plots, organise and design the framework for performing arts productions. He wanted to fulfill his childhood dream - to put his music and ideas on stage for all to see. It wasn't an easy decision to make, but he does not regret it at all.

Following that, I start to reflect on my dreams...

It is true that I'm passionate for teaching and educationg young minds, and I used to think that following my parents' footsteps and making a difference in local schools is all I ever wanted to do... I still think so... Or do I?

I guess dreams do change... In fact, I am a dreamer... Coming to a foreign land has indeed opened up my mind to endless possibilities in life, triggered my ambitious self, which led me to believe I can do more that what I have limited myself to.

I remember since I was 16, I had a dream (which I did shared with my dad, who surprisingly did not ridicule that idea of mine)... I wanted to own a boutique line of mine, with a concept. It shall be called, 'The F Word'.

I used to think that the name itself could intrigue curiousity...Lol...

Let me further explain this concept of mine (hopefully no one steals my idea!!! Hahahaha...)

F, of course refers to my name... But it does not end there... I wanted to have a few line of clothings by having my boutique in a few sections...

Section 1 - Fabulousity (where one can find fabulous evening and party wear that could make one stand out in the crowd)

Section 2 - Funky-licious (Fun clothes, neon colors, crazy designs, for the fashion dare-devils..lol)

Section 3 - Flowery summer (Summer dresses that scream flowers overdosage!!!)

Section 4 - Feminine power (work wear that ain't boring but gives the definition of fierceness and power)

Section 5 - Fairyland (fairy-inspired dresses that could make one embrace the role of a magical creature for a day... Could include princess-like dresses too)

The dream was also to increase the line if the business grow... Hahahaha... Not many people knew about this dream of mine, now you do ;)

The other dream I had was more recent. I wanted to be a nomad!

Well, not exactly... But I want to teach in different countries! By having a TESOL degree (Teaching English as a Second Language), I already have informal offers to teach in Korea or Japan where the demand is high and the pay is freaking good... Hence came the thought of... "wouldn't it be nice to teach the language in different countries by term-contracts, while having the chance to explore those lands and cultures?" Even though I'm not a native speaker in English, but I have had feedback that international students do prefer my teaching. Mainly because, I myself am a second language learner hence have more sensibility to teach the language while considering the common problems of second language learners, which are often overlooked by native-speaking teachers.

And, the dream does not end there. I hope that after travelling and teaching in a few different countries, I would have the experience and knowledge I need to open my own language school in one of the countries, or maybe settling down in Malaysia. My aim is to establish a language school that is practical with meaningful lessons that cater to second language learners' needs... Hmm... Will that remain as a dream???

After having dreams after dreams, reality struck that I'm bonded with the government for 5 years! So. by the time I'm free to do whatever I want to, I will be 28...and 28=OLD!!!

Not that I'm being ungrateful that the government has provided me with the luxury of studying overseas and a job right after I graduate... Not that I wanna disappoint my parents who lovingly hope that I could serve in malaysia because they will miss me dearly if i'm abroad (Dad constantly used the excuse of the difficulty for them, old with weak limbs, having to board the plane and fly for hours to see their grandchildren...)... I just couldn't help sighing about the limited opportunities because of this contract....

Finally, I came to realisation that I have just been dwelling on my own will and desire... And I haven't surrendered my life and future to God, believing that He has the best plans designed for me...

So, I really should stop complaining, but trust in God for his favour and wisdom...

Let's wait and see how will God lead me in this walk of mine =)

p/s. I blame the emoness on the nearing of the time of the month @_@.... Lol...

My dad says the darnest thing! ;)

2009-06-24T13:14:00.002+12:00

Last night, dad called... We had our usual roll call (once every 2-3 days)... Dad asked whether I need more money... And, I as the filial daughter said no... After some gossip exchange and wise words, we both hang up...

Then, I went back to facebook and my online bookings... Looking at my newly-arrived glossy credit card, I decided to enlighten my friends about my new-found toy through my facebook status...

Went straight to bed after I was done with the day...

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*Mercy me blared from my phone in the middle of the night*

I picked up the phone... 'Ohh... a text from dad'

'Girl, u got yrself a c card? Congratz. Question: why now?'

Me, being all sleepy just replied

'Have to do online bookins 4 my trip with my oz frens'

2 more exchanges of texts... I resumed my snoring.....

Next day (aka today), dad called at 10 am... (5 am in Malaysia)...

*Note that he called me that early even though he had already called me the day before... I thought something bad happened...*

Here goes the conversation...

Me: Why are you calling me this early?

Dad: Haiyo, I got a shock yesterday ma.

Me: Huh? Why? About my credit card?

Dad: Ya lor... I thought you have some financial problems, didn't dare to tell me when I asked you whether you need more money, and applied credit card to deal with your debts...

Me: Hahahahahaha... You think I got involved with ah long and loan sharks is it?

Dad: *chuckles* Yea... Mana tau not just ah long, got ah chong, ah boon... hahahaha...

Me: Aiyo, don't worry k... I'm doing fine and I have money...

Dad: Ok lah... I just got a shock ma... You know lah you... Always keep things to yourself, and I have to find things out through your blog or facebook... Scare me only... Coz you never mentioned about credit cards then suddenly apply for one... hahahahaha

Me: Hahahaha... Ok lah... you should get ready for work...

Dad: Ahh... you take care yea.. Tell me if you need money... Love you girl.

Me: Love you too. Bye.

Ain't I blessed to have a dad like that ;)

New start..breathes in... ahh...

2009-06-22T08:01:00.005+12:00

Hit a rough patch a few days ago... Won't blog about it since I have finally decided to let it go for good... Why? Because I realised there are so much more beautiful reasons for me not to dwell on it, and I'm so so so excited about my new resolutions, revelations, and phase of life...

Yup Yup, I'm gonna put a lot of things behind me and start anew... Please do pray for me as I take this new step in life =)

Yesterday was a day with mixed feelings...

I was extremely happy...
When Kelsey spotted a perfect pair of boots for me at a crazily good deal...
When Amy, Sharmyn, Kelsey and I dug into the array of pork, roasted duck, king prawns, and tofu in bbq king.
When daddy called.
When Sze Wei, Lilly, Joy and I let go all 'ayuness' and sang, danced, swayed to the songs of old times *mental reminder to get the pictures from Sze Wei, and stop her from uploading videos of yesterday which could stain my already-stained-and-well-known-luluness-personality-yet-i'm-in-denial-thinking-that-i'm-a-goddess-wth image.*
When L joked.
When Kelsey and I had our many pillow talk sessions.

Then came the sad part...
When I have to see Kelsey leave...
Missing her already... Was happy to see the once-fragile-little-girl-who-seem-like-she-could-be-blown-away-by-the-wellington-wind-and-might-not-be-able-to-reach-auckland-in-one-piece transforming into a lovely, young lady with passion, faith, and strength. That small frame of hers went through so much trials and tribulations, yet seeing her able to maintain that sweetness and innocence of hers was a breath of fresh air, and a new driving force for me =)

To the little sweet girl, I want to let you know that your stay with me was indeed some of the best days of mine in Auckland, and I love you so much I could squeeze you till there's no more fat left lingering in your body *except for the moments you kept reminding me that i'm gaining weight*...lol...

What's up next?

I got involved in the Brighter Future Musical, which I believe that it's gonna be a cool experience for me in the last days of Auckland!!! Will be helping out in the choreo of some items, such as the eco-living song... Scratching my head hard to incorporate stomp, dancing with green bags and recycleable items, videos, mime + hip hop + lyrical dance, and lots more into 7 minutes!!! *scratch scratch scratch*

Then, after getting my credit card on wednesday, I could do further bookings for our long-awaited road trip that's gonna be so crazy we might end up in jail... or maybe not...lol... *finally applied for a credit card after living here for so long just to do online bookings... man...* Worth every penny of the $25 annual fee... things i do for my babes =)

ok... its 8.26 am now... have been awake since 3.20am to send kelsey off...

Perhaps its time to roll around the bed and hide under the soft covers till I could sleep like a dead log... *hmm... sounds like a good plan...*

Have been in love with this song, sang in church...

"We will overcome... By the blood of the Lamb, and the Word of our testimony... Everyone, overcome..."

Risen from the dead.... creeps

2009-06-14T19:04:00.002+12:00

Ok... I know the title of this entry is rather mysterious... and this post is nothing short of that... or at least it is to me... Have been contemplating whether to write this... but I guess I do have to let it out...

For those who knew my past, you would have known about my rather drama-like 21st birthday... if not, you could check it out here...

Well, so J has been totally out of my life for sometime that feels like forever...

My friends all prophesied his death... *ouch*

Or had most probably killed him over and over again during previous bitching sessions...

As for me, I could hardly remember him since I'm well-loved and happy right now...

Till recently...

I was on msn, while working on my assignments, and an unsaved contact popped up...

It was J...

(Turns out that I have deleted his contact but have not blocked him... @_@... yea.. I know I'm smart... blek)

It was totally unexpected... shocking... and rather amusing.... hmm...

How would you respond to a person who left you on your birthday, disappeared without a sound, changed his contacts, gave no explanations, left the last words of 'please wait for me, and I will be back', yet avoided you for what seemed forever, till he replied your email asking you to move on with a simple, insincere apology; and after more than a year contacting you with tonnes of apology and offering to make it up to you?

The answer is extremely simple for me.

I have indeed move on.

I no longer love/hate him.

I no longer question myself or blame myself for something totally not my fault.

I no longer live on uncertainties.

I no longer go against my friends and dwell in the past.

I no longer hold any grudge on him.

In fact, I sympathized and pitied him - for losing a gem like me.

Throughout the whole conversation, I could feel that he was trying hard to mend something that he thought was broken, and hinting that he could rebuild a new home over the ruins.

But the main thing is, why now? and what for?

I had to make it clear to him that my life has been great with great love, great friends, and great opportunities, and I even rejected his proposal of meeting up for 'proper explanation about the past.' I have moved on, and so should he.

L and Wira made the funniest comments regarding this incident, but they shall remain as our personal joke =P

To J, (although I doubt that you would ever come upon this)

What is past is past, let it pass. I have long forgiven you because I do not need to live my life in hatred and bitterness. I could only wish you all the best, and that you would treat the next girl better.

On a totally random note, I'm only having a tomato for dinner... @_@... Lol...

Shamelessness Alert!

2009-06-14T18:21:00.009+12:00

Just felt like having an entry filled with pictures of mine... hahaha... i'm not denying that i'm a narcissist =P

These pictures were carefully selected from my many albums over the past few years during one of my procrastinating moments, showing me as me - silly, silly, and totally silly...

Beware, and leave this page... if you're not prepared to be bombarded by shameless pictures of me and my lovely ones...hahaha...

p/s. I'm proud of the pictures below, as they are pure masterpieces, mostly inspired by my random yet creative juices, and beautifully portrayed by my fellow partners-in-crime... awww.....

Let the cameras roll~

-The End-

And that would not be the last of it... Stay tune for more randomness and wackiness... huhu...

2009-06-14T18:12:00.002+12:00

Ok.. This is a short post...

I just felt like saying this out...

For the first time in my life... after having a good share of friend's betrayal instances, I realised that I am disappointed with a friend of mine.. to the extent that I do not care anymore...

She did not betray me.

She did not ruin my life.

She did not abandon me.

BUT, she took me for granted.

She told me she hated most when her friends only contact her in times of need. Yet that's what I am experiencing now.

She told me she hated most when her friends exclude her completely from their lives. Yet that's what I am experiencing now.

She told me she hated most when she has been taken for granted. Yet, there's no other word better to describe what I am experiencing now.

I wish you all the best. But do not expect me to cry and beg you to be part of my life again.

Glamming up to meet the GG

2009-06-14T17:17:00.007+12:00

Ok... Finally, I can declare that I'm free! Even just for 1 month, this feeling is rather indescribable... The ability to catch a breather after such a long and tough run ~~(still in constant denial of the many procrastination efforts and detours taken)~~, is mere bliss... =)

As I have basically neglected my humble blog for a significantly long period of time, and could render thoughts that the blogger has been kidnapped and sold to the underground market (influence of the movie Taken)... err... maybe not... I have decided to come out with a whole string of entries... just to make up of my previous absence, as well as putting down my thoughts before they become misty and lost in one way or other...

Enough of talk, let's get onto the real stuff... @_@

On the 3rd of June, I was able to step into the exclusive Northern Club... founded since 1869, a social club for politicians and well-respected businessman and professionals where briefcases are left closed and business talk is confined to private rooms.

It is so exclusive, many people (commoners like me) did not even know of its existence, as it doesn't even have a signboard and is covered with vines and flowers... I used to thought that it was an abandoned haunted mansion...@_@

Well, the reason I was able to have the opportunity to even taste the signature Northern Club sandwiches and wine was because the Breakfast Club of AUT hosted an event, which was graced by the presence of the Governor General of New Zealand; and I went as L's partner.

To be honest, I wasn't as excited about it as I should perhaps be. Below are the many reasons.

1. Nothing in my closet screams appropriateness for the event. (At least it gives me a reason to shop??? hehehe)

2. I don't do business talk. (according to Wira, all we need to do is to look pretty... ok.. advice taken)

3. I don't know and don't really care about the Govenor General. (Well, I don't even know who was the prime minister of NZ until they have to re-elect a new one... @_@)

4. I don't drink. (Throughout the whole event, I had a sip of the white wine, made a face, passed the glass to L, had orange juice instead... 2 glasses of that... and they taste awesomely good).

5. I know I will feel out of place. (True enough, only Wira and I had nothing whatsoever to do with Business.... @_@)

Well, on the good side, I can proudly say that I rubbed shoulders with some big shots ~~whom I don't think I would even recognise in the future~~, had lovely pictures taken, and had a opportunity to doll up... It is a once in a lifetime experience.

Will just let the pictures do the talking for the rest of the entry...

Rummaged through shops and boutique looking for something decent, affordable, yet looks comparable to the branded stuff walking around in that cocktail party..tough feat)

Finally settling for a black dress.. accessorized with a gold belt...

and some make up, and hair curling... I'm ready!

Since we were early, we cam-whored around the grand winter ballroom...

and some more shots after the GG gave his speech...

But it seems like we were the youngest bunch... and the only ones flaunting our cameras and posing for pictures... even some of the reporters requested to have our pictures taken... too bad they didn't come out in the papers when we checked... In fact, only the GG's photo was shown... ~~such cheapskates...bleh~~ Lol...

It was quite an experience~

2009-05-23T08:50:00.002+12:00

L did a facebook quiz and the results came out indicating that he's Bruce Lee...

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Therefore, I too realized my true identity......

I am...

Bruise Lee....

*cognitive overload took over*

lalalalalalalalalalalala.....

Back to my studies... T.T

yada yada yada

2009-05-17T17:05:00.009+12:00

Haven't been updating my blog recently... well... posting meme and pictures of me being a 'stressor' do not quite count ;)

and I have just finished my assignment in less than 3 hours! A personal record that calls for celebration and a little splurge of indulgence... hehehe...

Though one hurdle is over and off my shoulders for now... there are many more to come~ well, as the saying goes 'cheong meng kung fu cheong meng zoe' (translation: we have a long life to work things out), I shall spoil myself with some form of relaxation~ blogging while waiting for my Romance Zero episode 5 to finish streaming *pure delight*

The past week has been rather eventful~ assignments, dates, mentoring, school observation, MATES lunch and meeting, Wira's party, worship leading in Life Group etc... a whole just week passed by... just like that...

Maybe because I'm getting older *hmm*, I started to be more appreciative of each passing day, of each living moment, and of each breath I breathe...

*dang... I am talking like an old woman now.. @_@''' *

pictures taken during School Observation at Avondale College

Am I even making sense now? Hahaha.... Apparently not... Ok, the 1 hour video is only 17 % loaded... Hence I shall continue squabbling...Lol...

Oh yeah, yesterday was supposed to be Teacher's Day in Malaysia. To the two greatest teachers of my life - daddy and mummy, Happy Teacher's Day! The both of you were never short of an inspiration for me: I am where I am today because of your never-ending love and care for me, your insightful teachings and advice, and your constant belief in me~

And to all teacher-trainees and educators (or as Jarod puts it - fellow warriors of the classroom), you guys are awesome and deserve to be pampered and honoured on this day! Do not let the fire within burn down and continue to strive for your deserving learners ;)

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Ok, gona detour a bit... I am currently rather into K-Pop... Lol... It has been awhile really, but because my internet connection is like damn good here (I no longer have to stream youtube videos but just press play and watch), I have become quite an updated person when it comes to the K-Pop scene... I have watched more recent dramas and game shows than my fellow Korean peers in New Zealand... *possessed by vainity and pride*

My recent fav Korean drama would have to be Shining Inheritance!

Check it out on my new best friend - www.v.youku.com ~

And what do I think about the new girl group by YG? Fresh, interesting... but a little over the top.. love the song, not the concept, and definitely feel that they shouldn't ride on Big Bang's popularity...

and one would wonder could they stop being so fickle minded and decide on one concept???!!!

Oh... and our town hall was magically transformed for a few nights due to Telco's XT advertising~

boring ol' look

transformed into...

this...

Ok, enough of nonsensical blabbering... Time to watch my show..huhuhu...

Before that, a little dedication to a babe of mine whose birthday was yesterday~

Stay pretty and smart, and thanks for being a part of my life~ Hugssss

why do I always make silly faces and 'uglify' myself??? Lol...

In need of releasing stress...lol

2009-05-12T22:07:00.004+12:00

Finish this sentence: It should be against the law to...

jump queues!!! Hello, please be civilised uncle! (recalling an event...)

Finish this sentence: I wish I would have listened when my parents told me to...

take good care of my skin when I was in high school... too late to mourn for my breakouts... sob...

Finish this sentence: I absolutely REFUSE to...

walk around pantyless! Never ever came across to me that public display of *clears throat* is cool, even if it is modeled by attention-seeking celebrities...

Fill in the blanks: Although most people wouldn't think so, __durian__ and _plain white rice_ taste really good together!

Fill in the blanks: My favorite sugary gas station food is __anything chocolate _ and my favorite salty gas station food is __kumara chips__.

Fill in the blank: If I ever have the time, I'm going to take lessons on _belly dancing_.

Would you rather... Eat only chicken for dinner OR Never have chocolate again?

I'm not exactly a diet freak. Give me both my meat and my sinful delights!

Would you rather...Be able to read people's minds OR control people's minds?

Reading minds sound pretty cool to me... Beware, hypocrites and perverts!

Would you rather... Have a hometown, but never get to travel OR Travel the world but with no place to call your hometown?

The world is my home!

What's the funnest board game of all time?

Hmm... Cranium cracks me up~

What's the funniest movie you've ever seen?

Can't really name just one though, I'm really into comedies ;)

What do you think is the saddest movie you've ever seen?

A walk to remember... Tears never cease to flow even I've watched it from the inside out, or backside front...*emo*

Name 2 things that you absolutely HATE to do, but have to do them everyday.

academic work.. duh... and... poo-ing... (gets rather energy-consuming sometimes...hahahaha)

Name 2 nicknames you've had in your lifetime.

The infamous 'bakchi' and 'lulu'

Name 2 things you look forward to everyday.

a new day to live, and food... =)

T.T

2009-05-12T18:52:00.002+12:00

ASSignments are...

killing me softly............

... sob...

Deep and Serious thoughts... not good for the brain...lol

2009-05-08T18:59:00.005+12:00

Most of my close friends in New Zealand as well as readers of my blog would have known that I'm involved in a mentoring programme - MATES that aims at helping at-risk students have a good transition from intermediate to secondary school, by providing extra support and some form of tutoring. The decision to participate as one of the pioneers of this new baby project would be one of the best I have made in New Zealand so far. It wasn't an easy journey, but it was definitely a very educational one

Here are my two lovely yet cheeky mentees~ Shamayne and Darlene

and the yellow hedgehog is called henry... Lol..

Schools is New Zealand are divided according to 'deciles'. Decile 1 for extremely low income from the students' families, and decile 10 for the schools of the rich. And the school which we were sent for mentoring - James Cook High School is of decile 1.

But hold your thoughts to yourself, the schools are no way near deserving sympathy~

It has facilities for Dragon Boating, Outrigging, Touch Rugby, Volleyball, Swimming, Athletics, Softball, Rugby, Netball, Basketball, Rugby League, Hockey, Soccer, Indoor Soccer, Table Tennis, Squash, Water Polo and Equestrian.

Impressed? Wait till you see this, all students are required to learn at least one musical instrument. The school not only has sufficient guitars, drums, saxophones, clarinets, violins, cellos, keyboards and pianos, they have specialised tutors for music and drama.

This is what I love about New Zealand education system. One may come from extreme poverty or even a dysfuntional family with no financial support, one will still have equal opportunities to pursue their wants and needs in schools. *thinks back on Malaysian schools... sigh... we still have a long way to go...*

We have been exposed to different types of schools in NZ, from public to private, from common to extravagant. And for our current practicum, we were divided into groups and sent to schools at the outskirts of Auckland... That means a lot of travelling and tiresome bus rides T.T

Well, 6 of us - Haniff, Adlina, Farhana, Intan, Wira and I were sent to Avondale College (decile 5). There were some hiccups from the beginning but overall it was a good but exhausting experience... 9 more trips to go... The experience in Avondale College would be entirely another entry...

Here are some pictures of Wira and I fooling around when we were asked to photocopy exam papers @_@

me being 'serious'...

me being a wacko teacher crazy for bananas

and this taken using my camera's timer, minutes before Mrs Quah entered the room... phew...

This entry is about something Mrs Quah (the teacher I was assigned to) said that struck me hard... It made me think hard...

Mrs Quah used to be a lecturer in Maktab Perguruan Ilmu Khas, and was trained in a universtity in UK. After teaching for quite sometime in Malaysia, she decided that she wanted her children to receive better education than what the Malaysian system could offer, so she opted for optional retirement when she was 40 and migrated with her family over to New Zealand. Even if it meant that she had to sacrifice her respectable job as a teacher college lecturer, and started all over again in New Zealand as a teacher-aid; even if it meant that her qualifications and teaching services in Malaysia were not recognised by the New Zealand system then, and had to restudy in University of Auckland while receiving the starting pay for teachers - she felt that they were all worth-while, because her children received good education and her family benefited a lot from the NZ system.

Even before this, we had a forum with our seniors who were back for their graduation (they are teaching in schools now). Oh my, we were totally slapped in the faceby the harsh reality.

Some of them did not even teach English in schools although our degree is in TESOL, and were asked to teach history, geography etc. They were bullied by teachers and principals just because they "graduated from overseas and should be capable of handling all those ridiculous tasks." They work from morning till night because there are always 'extra work', 'night classes', 'extra-curricular activities', 'roles and responsibilites in different departments of the schools'. And some of them were even sent to places so remote that there is hardly reception for mobile calls, let alone internet.

All of these may sound depressing. But the most saddening part is, even they admited that what we learned, the dreams we have for our future learners, are inapplicable in the real world of Malaysia. Many of them started out strong, and many are giving up.

Was I scared? I was, and I am.

Although I know how schools work, how teachers live (since I grew up with 2 teachers with thousands of responsibilities in my family), and I had teaching experiences in primary and secondary schools before receiving formal teaching training; I am still scared. There are times when I discussed or suggested teaching strategies to my dad for his seminars and teaching, he would say that I'm being too idealistic.

What I couldn't understand is that, why are those 'idealistic methods' achieveable in NZ but not in Malaysia? In fact, those approaches are of common sense and not 'ideal' in NZ schools.

Will there not be a day when Malaysia's education system would be as developed, and not bluntly focus on useless 'A's, and foolaround with the 'bell-graph'?

Will there be a day when teaching is no longer viewed as a 'last option' and 'a stable half-day job' but rather as a noble and respected job?

Or will I, after been exposed to equality, maturity in social mentality, and other benefits hold by places other than Malaysia, choose to leave my homeland so that my children could receive better?

OR, would I stay, and try to make a difference in my small world, hoping that what I sow could be harvested in abundance in the future?

Lord, i ask for Your guidance. More of than not, i tend to let my human logic and rationale get the better of me. Many a times, i struggle and try to fight my way through my own human strength and wisdom. i'm so sorry Lord. Now, i surrender my hopes, dreams, and my future unto Your hands Lord. Mould me, use me to my utmost potential, for the purpose You have in my life. In You I trust, Amen.

Who am I?

2009-05-06T18:20:00.005+12:00

The infamous question: Who am I?

When I'm with my close ones, I tend to be vulnerable, gentle, silly, forgetful, dramatic, outrageous, romantic, clumsy, soft-spoken, and practically speak, act, and fuss like a lil girl...*clears throat*... i mean seriously...

Yet, when it comes to my studies, work, standing before higher authorities or even meeting a stupid-cashier-who-mumbled-under-his-breath-and-gave-me-the-look-when-I-paid-with-a-RM50-note-for-a-purchase-of-RM3.50-just-because-that's-the-only-cash-I-had, I basically have a 180 degree switch. I would be viewed as dominant, independent, efficient, power-freak, tough, as well as the girl-who-would-take-no-bullshit-of-all-these-and-bang-on-the-cashier-counter-confronting-that-rude-cashier-while-demanding-to-see-the-manager.

Many people have commented on my drastic difference which are on the extreme ends. Some mentioned that their impression of me always changes.

It kinda made me think who am I really?

The durian (hard on the outside, but soft and gooey in the inside?

Or the longan (soft on the flesh, but hard in the core)?

To give you an illustration of the daily life of Felicia Peh Yi Ting~

She could trip while walking, misplace her stuff, and forget about her phone when she leaves her apartment; yet she always gets her work done way before deadline, has the tendency to take over leadership roles, and remembers time, dates, and specific details of 'important events' without jotting them down.

She could easily forgive someone who hurt her deeply by a simple apology or gesture, take the extra mile to help someone whom she sensed has a need, and take joy in blessing people with gifts and generosity; yet she could not tolerate a rude stranger, avoids asking for help even from her closest friends, and would not splurge money for own comfort and desire (When i'm getting a gift for someone, a $20 journal would seem affordable to me; but when it comes to getting a $1.50 mrs Higgins' cookie for myself, I have to think twice, thrice, before reaching for my purse... or just suck it up and move away from the tempting shop T.T )

So what does this make me?

Do I have split personality or an alter ego like Niki Sanders from Heroes?

Am I being real in one situation and phoney in the other?

Am I actually soft but putting up a strong front?

Or am I growing up too fast, hence yearning for a kiddish-side?

Or maybe, that's just who I am.

Just like trinity or even H20... They could appear in three forms, yet are viewed as one.

I may have different sides of me, but that's just how I function. There is no clear definition of me when I'm still searching for myself, growing, changing, and evolving as I overcome each obstacle and celebrate each joy that comes my way.

Hence, i hereby declare that Felicia is still a young adult who is experiencing moratorium, and in search of her identity~

BUT... No matter what her calling maybe, she will still live by her name - the happy one, as there are so much blessings that need to be counted each new day .

We could start off by thanking God that we are alive and well today ;)

My 'Double Two' Celebration~

2009-05-04T15:24:00.013+12:00

Ok... Finally I could sit down and jot down things about my birthday.

First of all, I'm really thankful to all well-wishers, and those were super-concerned whether I had a better birthday compared to the disaster that happened last year... So to all those whom I love dearly, my birthday couldn't have been better, just because of your thoughts, effort, and your deep-felt love~

Well, the whole awareness treatment of me becoming 22 started a few days before the actual date when Wira faked an accident and I had to rush over to her place huffing and puffing. But it was a delightful surprise~

the surprise entrance

and the craziness stepped in..Lol...

And L decided to make my birthday special. It was definitely a memorable day and we ended up having a splendid buffet dinner at Langham. Shall let the pictures speak of its awesomeness...Lol...

Sze Wei and Kevin came later that night to pass me my gift, followed by another visit from Wira, Timo and Ryoma. The next day, Lilly came to my apartment to deliver her prezzie too...

Seriously, I am so well-loved by many. Phone call from home, with grandma and granpa on the line, text messages and facebook wishes from all the sweeties, phone call from my brother... i repeat... my brother... and the sweet effort of L, I can only say I am truly blessed =)

Not forgetting the prezzies too...

black forest cake - L's mom

Citizen mother of pearl charm bracelet watch with Swarovski crystals - L

pig pillow and card - Wira

Aroma therapy fragrance and photo frame - Sze Wei

Kikki K book and Card - Cindy

Aroma therapy fragrance - Lilly

Dove chocolates - Joy

Lindt chocolates - Ivan

and it's not too late to send in your gifts ;) hehehehe...

Thanks everyone for making me a happy girl... erm... i mean a happy young lady....

Man... I AM getting ....old.....

... not complaining.... hehehehe...

Unable to breathe...

2009-04-30T19:33:00.002+12:00

I kinda had a fright of my life...

First time ever, i had difficulty in breathing... Even now, my heart is still beating fast... Am trying hard to relax and calm down...

Was just doing some exercises while waiting for my eggs to boil, and the next thing i know, I was desperately holding onto my chest, gasping for air... I tried to pull myself together and rushed to open up all windows and doors, while breathing in as hard as I could...

L and dad both called me when I was still breathing heavily... Talking with them kinda calm me down... But there is still a pang felt in my chest, and my heart is still beating fast...

Felicia, take a deep breath....

breathe in... breathe out....

It's definitely worth it ;)

2009-04-28T19:49:00.004+12:00

Today was a day of surprises... Both pleasant and unfortunate...

From a planned buffet lunch at Skycity's Fortuna (they are having a promotion of only $10 for lunch buffet till the 30th of April!!! But our reservation got declined cause it was fully-booked!!!), we ended up in a chinese restaurant...yi tiao long (trans: a dragon).

With a name like that, one would expect grand chinese cuisine prepared at its finest... Oh well, never judge a book by its cover @_@

First of all, the waiter literally slam our table when giving us our tea... He was so aggresive that Connelly nearly shitted in his pants... nah... Lol... We ordered our food that comes with bombastic names... Gossiped... Then I decided to make a trip to the toilet...

The shop lady took us on an 'adventure'. as we had to climb a flight of stairs and walked into an alley to use the toilet. She stuck her key in, the door flung open, and I went in. Sze wei who was accompanying me stayed outside waiting for me...

Aha, if you think a toilet trip would be boring for ms. Lulu aka me, you're so wrong!

I was emptying the fluid in my bladder when i heard someone trying to open the toilet door... Next thing I know, the door was slightly ajar and my pants were still down... I got such a shock and shouted out "Excuse me!!!" Then the door was slammed shut again... In my heart I was thinking wasn't Sze Wei outside guarding me??? How could this ever happen?????

Apparently, Sze Wei was slightly distracted by the bulletins nearby, and she 'went away from her post'..lol.. and out came this girl from a nearby shop with a key to the toilet... So... yeah.... hahahaha....

We went back to the restaurant, told Con and Wira about the incident, had a good laugh, and decided to take some pictures so I could blog about it later.

Then, the food came...

Looking at the food, we don't even know they were what we ordered... -.-'''

Tell me does this look like deep-fried pork and scramble eggs with rice?

the bakchoy looks pathetic...

Or how about this wanton delight with pork belly on rice?

I don't even know why it turn out good in pictures... trust me, it was NOT impressive at all on sight...

We were so disappointed with the food yet the company was great... Never a dull moment when we get to bitch about some juicy scandals or just goof around ;)

Then it was time for Sze Wei and I to go for our mentoring session in Manurewa. Personally, I was uncertain and praying hard that my mentees will turn up. Something happened between my mentees which I shall not disclose too much information, and might trigger them both to not appear for the session. Well, Darlene is my main mentee whom I'm closer to but she comes from a very unstable family, and Sharmayne is a mentee I'm gonna take over hence I haven't exactly form a bond with her..

Working with at-risk students in this mentoring program is definitely a challenge. Many a times we have our students fail to even attend classes, needless to say a mentoring session for 2 hours after school (3.15-5.15pm), and we have to make many trips to their homes, talk with their erratic parents, and deal with disappointments...

The most difficult part is actually to form constant communication with them as most of them come from families with financial problems, and only have one shared mobile phone in the whole household (most of the time in the hands of the parents of course). So, whatever text messages we sent to our mentees might not even reach them as their parents (who have moods) might just discard the message or not bothered to pass it on...

I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw Darlene, my darling. As usual, she hid herself in the library hoping to give me a fright, then came out giggling... No sign of Sharmayne and Darlene said she did not see Sharmayne in school. Our lovely Program Coordinator, Ann Dunphy asked me to just go ahead and focus on my original mentee, and we shall sort out the issues regarding Sharmayne later. Just delighted to see Darlene, we started off our session... and it went on so well~

Darlene just had their school term break for 2 weeks.

Before her break, we agreed to exchange at least 2 letters.. she wrote me 5~

She even gave me a picture of her and her sister for me to keep us remembrance... How sweet is that =)

Look at her lovely letters

That darling even sorted out her letters with themes.. The letter started off with "Hello", followed by "So Sorry" - Regarding a past incident, "Holidays", "I L Y" that stands for I Love You..awww..., and the last one, "Hi, Looking Forward 2 C U"...

To be honest, I was teary when I read through her letters..

All the heartache, patience, and perseverance seemed to all make sense now... This form of fulfilment is indescribable~

To top off the day, Sharmayne texted me around 7pm to apologize for not making it to the mentoring session today and she gave her reasons. Then we exchanged a few more texts and she promised me that she will definitely come next week, sounding all positive and excited~

I believe I have found my calling, and I'm on the right track...

It may be tough, scary at times, and deprives us off our energy and inner strength...BUT...

It's definitely worth it ;)

Insanity struck!

2009-04-27T19:15:00.005+12:00

Phew... Feels kinda whack since we're pretty much done with our assignments... for now... The relief felt was really beyond words...*shrugs off the thoughts of yesterday..brrrrrrr...*

Yesterday was insane, frustrating and somewhat suffocating... BUT... I survived, and that my friend, calls for a celebration!

To start off, my flatmate moved out on Saturday, and I was supposed to move into her room (since its bigger and nicer and only 6 dollars more expensive than my current room)...

BUT... My stupid landlord didn't come to inspect her room hence I couldn't move my stuff in... the best part was, not till I texted him, he didn't even bother to tell us that he could only come the next day!

He wasted my day, coz not only I had my stuff all packed with no where to go (I actually had to dig through my bags for my moisturizer and stuff), I had an online assignment due that midnight! Well, I'm not that much of a procrastinator and I kinda expect some sort of stupidity from my landlord, therefore I was so glad that I had my assignment sorted earlier...

The real drama started the next day!

My landlord - James texted me saying he will meet my ex-flatmate in my apartment at 11am to inspect the room, clear the bond, and terminate the contract.

Guess what, from 11 it became 12.

That's not all...

After settling everything with lil Jenny aka ex-flatmate, he turned to me and told me 'jokingly' that a girl is moving into my room at 2pm!

i was like wth! He didn't even have any successful tenants from the few visits he made and he just dropped the bombshell that some (quote: young, but slightly older than me taiwanese girl) is moving in... and at 2pm! leaving me less than 2 hours to move my stuffs and clean my freaking room!

I wasn't gonna let him step over me... I fought back... I told him it is ridiculous to ask me to evacuate and provide tip top cleaning service in 2 hours since I was promised a whole aka yesterday to move my stuff.. Him sensing my displeasure, told me that the girl would be considerate and wouldn't mind waiting for me to finish my business... In my mind I was thinking, if I'm that poor girl who just arrived from christchurch and wanted to move into my new place, all I want is a clean and vacant room where I can dump all my things in, take a shower and rest... ain't not gonna stand there looking at the ex-tenant scrubing and vacumming away~

Anyway, I chose to suck it up and just do what I could... Talking to L definitely helps to cheer me up... Before I know, I actually finished everything before 2pm, and later took my time decorating my room while waiting for James and the newbie to show up...

Guess what, they showed up at 3.30pm! All the rush for _______ ??? Arghhhhhh....

Before that, i cooked something simple for lunch... Haven't eaten anything since morning and was dying to have some proper food~

Then.. surprise surprise... James appeared with a young lady who was just holding a handbag??? *hmmm... I thought she is supposed to move in?*

She went ooh and ahh at how new and clean the place is *duh... I cleaned it*, how simple is it just to live with another person in a 2-bedroom apartment *duh...again*, how super strategic the location is *dduhhhhhh*, then how it is out of her budget... huh???

Doesn't that quite feel like the elimination round in America's Next Top Model when Tyra will just praise someone on and on before announcing that "I'm sorry, you are not in the run of becoming America's Next Top Model"?????

James then proceeded to show her the laundry room while trying to persuade her to 'follow the initial deal' and take the room. He told me he will come back to talk about the broken towel heater rack in my new room, but he never did. Poof... That irresponsible jerk left, without notice without any text.. surprise surprise...

After all the unnecessary drama and hardwork... I had to tidy up and edit this other assignment due the next day.. It was just such a long day... BUT... It's over now...

On a lighter note, I shall present the transformation of my humble abode to the eyes of all...rather, just to amuse myself really..hahahaha...

From a room with 1 single bed, 1 set of desk and chair...

I moved into a room with 2 beds (bunk) and 1 long desk with 2 chairs.. not to forget.. bigger space too ;)

After a few touch of magic here and there...

before

After

Before

After

Before

After

...

And my simple yet satisfying energy booster~

... and that's a wrap!

Sinfully-delicious thoughts

2009-04-24T14:58:00.007+12:00

Ironically, after putting up a brave front and posting up an entry on *clears throat* healthy eating... I find myself craving for certain delicacies, found only in good ol' Malaysia...

Damn... Blame it on the "waiting-for-clothes-in-the-dryer-to-be-dried-and-the-mouth-becomes-gatal-then-starts-thinking-about-food" moment...

Although I have better things to do like editting my 2 assignments, packing my stuff, cleaning my abode as a preparation to move to a new room tomorrow -.-''' My mind decided to play tricks with me by flicking through images of................................

*mind wanders off to heaven*

.......

...........

.....................

Ok, I'm back! So... I shall start sharing about food that I love, food would love to get a taste of it right this moment, and food that I would definitely recommend others to try ~

Well, ain't good things ought to be shared ;)

foodie cravie no.1

cendol

one may wonder what the heck is that? some green slimy worms swimming in my bowl!!! Well.. before you go all balistic demanding for the manager (in a small coffee shop or stall)... have a try of it... and you will find yourself in paradise... (close enough..lol)

foodie cravie no.2

satay kajang

Gorgeously marinated chunks of meat strung together, grilled over charcoals with juice dripping all over...
Then dipped into thick, smacking delicious peanut gravy........
ahhhhhhhh........

foodie cravie no.3

char koey teow

We can find decent char koey teow in NZ... But nothing beats those produced by the sifus from dear homeland~

foodie cravie no.4

grandma's special laksa!!!

This isn't exactly the picture of my nana's laksa... coz hers is like 5 times better than the picture! Drooling at the thought of it...

foodie cravie no.5

nasi lemak

Nothing too fancy like those in restaurants, but the old school RM1 nasi lemak wrapped in banana leaves... Those 'turn me on'...lol...

foodie cravie no.6

deep fried butter prawns

Just by looking at the picture, don't think much elaboration is needed ;)

foodie cravie no. 7

asam prawns

The ideal food that gives you the reason to suck your fingers from your thumb to your pinky... You wouldn't wanna waste any drop of that asam sauce... ooh lala...

foodie cravie no.8

char siew pau

Yum cha places in NZ are pretty good, but their cahr siew paus are just no where near to satisfying my cravings of it... Maybe its the familiarity of growing up with the char siew pau in Pokok Assam, Taiping... ... ... ...

... ... ... ahhhh.... that fragrance, that softness of the bun, the thick bbq sauce gravy, the juicy pork filling............................ ahhhhh.............

foodie cravie no.9

lok lok

eating lok lok is fun... Used to be our special activity with great grandma when she was still alive... and i always aim for the quail eggs... yum...

foodie cravie no.10

durians!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg omg omg

I could never understand why durians are used in Fear Factor???!!! Hello, they are just the awesomest creation on earth... I want durians so baddddddddddddd........

foodie cravie no.11

good ol' Ramly burgers

forget about burger fuel, wendy's or burger king... Ramly burgers rock!

foodie cravie no.12

not just any kfc fried chicken... but Malaysian's hot 'n' spicy fried chicken!!!

KFC in NZ suck so bad... their chickens are so tiny they look like they have been tortured and deprived of food (in actual fact, they are supposed to be healthier as they are not been injected as much hormones as our chickens in Malaysia..), their chickens are so soggy that you would start questioning whether it has been deep-fried, and they only have the 'original' taste. Furthermore, they don;t even give you sauces... You get charged 80cents for 1 packet of ketchup!

I would only declare Malaysia's KFC as finger-licking good!

foodie cravie no.13

century egg congee with yau char kwai...

= Perfect Combination

ok... the list could go on and on... but my alarm rang, and it's time to get my clothes from the laundry~ (i thought it was my stomach's drumming that created the noice... though i doubt that my stomach has the talent to churn and turn while producing the beats for 'Right Round') hmmmmmm....

arghhhhhhh.... these pictures aren't exactly helping aye...

*looks back at previous post*

sighhhhhhhhhh.....................

In hopes of smoothing the bumpy patches...

2009-04-23T19:34:00.004+12:00

I'm not gonna deny... I have been struggling with acne... for quite some time...

The weird thing is, I don't necessarily get big, red pimples, scattered all over the sacred ground of my face; nor pits and peepholes here and there to make my face a replica of the moon...

BUT, I have these tiny miny moey acne calling my face home! They can be easily covered under heavy foundation, but a close look at me, one would feel like squeezing my blackheads or poke around those irritating mini bumps.

Besides, what I realised was: big, obvious pimples are actually easier to be treated, and I could easily get rid of them (if they pops out) within weeks... yet these tiny miny moey ones just wouldn't part from me!!! *arghhhhhhhhh*

The best part of it all, when I started noticing my facial complexion getting better, my ignorant, annoying Aunt Mary just have to pay me a visit... And guess what, she brought more friends to join my tiny miny moey clan -.-

This process has been going on for years...

So, I think it's time not to just rely on chemicals, and start getting my diet right! To be honest, I haven't been eating really healthily as tim tams and instant noodles will become my staple food during 'crazy times'... (I guess most students will feel me... lol)

Ok... A few clicks here and there... I have finally decided on 5 diet tips which I hope I could persistently hold on to, in hopes of bidding farewell to the unmissable tenants of my body... (maybe the family of 'fat' could join the migration too...hehehe)

And behold...

1. Avoid Milk!

This is going to be hard as New Zealand milk is relatively one of the best... sob...

Well, apparently milk contains certain hormone that could trigger acne breakouts... Coffee with cream or milk, or a bowl of cereal every now and then wouldn't do your skin any harm. But don't drink more than a glass of milk a day.

2. Cut down on sugar consumption!

Although it still haven't been scientifically proven, excessive sugar consumption can make acne worse! So, I would have to cut down on chocolates (bye whitaker, cadbury, tim tam, m&m's...sob), lollies, and soft drinks @_@

this is really heart-breaking... sob...

3. Increase Fish oil consumption.

Omega 3 fats found in fish are essential for healthy skin and acne prevention. Seems like I have to add salmon, cod and tuna onto my menu~

wouldn't really mind eating this for the rest of my life.... but.... 'ka-ching'....

4. Eat vitamins!

Some vitamins are essential for acne diet such as Vitamin B5 and Vitamin A. Although a good multivitamin pill a day would also do the trick but one shouldn't forget the old school way of eating fresh fruits and vegetables!

Hmm... tough choice...

5. Say... Zink Zink zink!

Zink can reduce acne! Include eggs, whole grains and mushroom into the regular diet as they are a good source of zink. The reason it can help is because is busts your immune system, helping your body cure acne naturally. That's definitely killing two birds with one stone ;)

doesn't look bad at all~

Mental note to self: Felicia, it's time to face reality and toughen up. let's try this for 2 weeks... if it doesn't work.... just google around for other remedies....Lol...

Granting a 'wish'...

2009-04-20T16:00:00.004+12:00

Early this morning, around 10.30 am (NZ time), which is 6.30 am (Malaysian time), the catchy and addictive beat of Dead and Gone blared from my phone... It's daddy!

Of all things to say to his darling daughter, he made the most unexpected comment...

Dad: Girl, you created a new blog ah?

Me: Ya lor.. so long only you realised...

Dad: *chuckles*

Me: That's why i wondered how come it took you so long to know about Susan
Boyle.. Must be you didn't read my blog...

Dad: *chuckles*... ahh... your blog ah, should include the transformation of a very important person you know...

Me: You mean you ah? hahahaha... Yea hor... That would be really funny...

Dad: Hehehe... when i was young i very leng cai k...

Me: Yea, and it took you only a while to become fat...*laughing mercilessly*

Dad: ahuh.. you laugh la... in 30 years time... we will see...*chuckling away*

Me: Dowannnnn........ Anyway, you want me to write an entry about you or not?

Dad: Eh... Mai la... Paiseh la...

Me: Aiyo... You asked for it just now ma... I can just put your photos from your wedding till now... Wahhh.... 'peh kim hock's metamorphosis'!

Dad: Dowan dowan... *laughs* Okay la... want to go liao... Say good morning to your mom...

and mom took over the phone... we greeted each other and after mummy said 'love you' and 'take care', we ended the phone conversation, and I was gleeing in delight...

p.s.: I only speak Manglish with my dad, who is also an English teacher... I guess in a way it's our little way of humouring ourselves since he can't really speak Manglish in his teaching environment, while I'm trying to correct my English in an English speaking country.

Long story short, I just finished editting my assignment due tomorrow, and am prepared to have some mischief of my own ;)

So... I shall present to you...

The metamorphosis of Felicia's Daddy!

There was once a handsome young lad, who claimed that his charms were unstoppable... *clears throat*... He got married to a lovely young lady after much pursuit...

Then the young lady got pregnant with their 1st child aka me~ Delighted he was, that he took good care of his wife, entertained her cravings, and ate with her...

After 9 months... The baby came out from her womb... But he had accumulated a lot of 'input'... and no significant 'output'...

The process continued for years... after 3 kids... my dad still looks like he's pregnant... *i'm so gonna get it big from him... lol*

although daddy kept growing 'horizontally'... he is still pretty much fit and active... especially when it comes to training his Civil Defense Cadets...

He led his team to many wins and recognition... He could easily put many young hot blood into shame...

I know he's not gonna let me go off easily... But I want him to know that I love him dearly, and I am always proud of him ;)

I've got a cuddly dad! Beat that!

metamorphosis of 'the happy one'...

2009-04-19T20:45:00.005+12:00

This is the product of the aftermath of assignments...

It gave me a good laugh, looking at my changes... lol

baby me~

-uncensored version-

then.. my growth sprang..

and i maintained my tomboy image till i was 16~

after my parents figured out that i'm mature enough to keep and maintain long hair... swt... my hair was allowed to grow beyond my shoulders... *claps and cheers*

... after some really slow 'maturation', vanity kicks in~ hahahaha...

with better make up skills, sense of fashion, and crazy hair makeovers... I'm still constantly evolving...

Instead of having Nicole Kidman's nose, Angelina Jolie's lips, and Jessica Alba's figure, I have mummy's round nose and plumpy fingers, daddy's pointy jaw and slightly brown eyes, which tells me that I'm part of them, beautifully made in the eyes of God =)

I wouldn't trade those traits for anything in the world ;)

but i do have to get rid of those black heads... LOL....

Rumba rumba~

2009-04-19T20:17:00.004+12:00

Just got 2 assignments down in 3 days... phew... Praise God!

1 more to go... but that's due 8 days later...

so... i shall do the dance now... hahaha

like this..

nah... maybe....some hula hoo...

or some cool and sleek moves?

Care to join me?

Wake up call, by a feisty woman!

2009-04-17T13:41:00.005+12:00

My eyes are terribly runny... Gosh, it has been a while since I have been so touched and moved within minutes...

All because i came across a feisty lady, a true talent, an inspiring role model~

Susan Boyle, a 48 year-old spinster who claimed she never had a boyfriend neither being kissed before, decided to get on with her guts and performed on the stage of Britain's Got Talent, as a tribute to her late mother.

Dressed in a plain beige dress, with scruffy hair and eyebrows of crayon shin chan, she wobbled to the stage uncomfortably in her heels, while receiving ridiculed looks from both the audience and the judges.

I love it when she declared that her age was only 'one side of her', as it shows that she clearly knows that she has more to what is seen!

Just when she told Simon that she wanted to be as successful as Broadway star Elaine Paige, immediately we were given screen shots of 'yea right, ugly wannabe' from the audience. (i guess the teen girl who was caught giving 'the look' must be pretty pleased to gain fame from the popularity of the video circulating worldwide... Lol..)

well... Have a look at the video, and see for yourself what is this hype all about.. Make sure you have tissues nearby though ;)

(as the video for some reason does not allow embedding, please click on the link below, and be blessed~)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

Judge Amanda Holden couldn't have put it better.

" I am so thrilled because I know that everybody was against you. I honestly think that we were all being very cynical and I think that's the biggest wakeup call ever. And I just want to say that it was a complete privilege listening to that."

It is so true that everyone was so judgemental... Looks were definitely the first impression as the media had corrupted everyone with the concept of artificial beauty, encouraging everyone to pursue the looks of a Victoria Secret model or someone 'worthy' to be a Playmate~

Ads of slimming products, blemish control, spa and beauty, gym membership, breast enhancement, cosmetics, plastic surgery... all scream at us, telling us that we are far from being perfect, we are filled with defects, and we need to CHANGE our looks to please others around us!!!

At a time of pure materialism, Susan Boyle came out, and shook the world that was obsessed with physical beauty and appearances, contradicted Hollywood that has been promoting stardom comes with beauty, and proved that one can always own the dream despite not having barbie looks!

Furthermore, she even inspired so many others to keep on pursuing your dream, putting aside fear of rejection, ridicule by others, or even your aging age! True talent survives through all circumstances.

Therefore I always find it ridiculous that pretty women over 25 can be too old to be a top model! Eh, older women also need to wear clothes! So why can't they have women of their age model appropriate clothes for them?

As much as I enjoy watching fashion runways, there are times when i feel like strangling the 'mastermind' who inculcated the perception that size 0 is pretty! I don't want to look like aliens or walking sticks to be 'approved' of my worth and value!

And to all the brainless beings out there who just had to leave nasty comments about Susan Boyle, such as 'get some tweezers' and 'slim down, bitch'... Well, she is the one blessed with an incredible voice, viewed more than 16 million times worldwide, and has many big recording labels fighting for her.. Try to beat that you shallow-minded morons!

Learn to embrace yourself, and don't just dream, but OWN it!

Last entry on OZ adventures

2009-04-15T11:14:00.012+12:00

Gahhh... can't imagine how busy as well as how lazy one could get... All of a sudden, I no longer feel the oomphhh to finish my traveling stories in OZ as I have so many other agendas which I felt like blogging about...

But somehow... it feels incomplete... and I wouldn't wanna end up doing things the 'chicken-chicken-shit' way...

Ohhhhh... Dilema dilema... *emo moment*

So, I've decided to just kinda 'summarise' the rest of the trip in brissy with my wonderful collection of pictures, and just highlight some interesting happenings... Hmm.. Let's see how it goes ;)

Well, as recommended by everyone else, we embarked our jouney to Movie World in Gold Coast.

Armed with our 'illegal' concession cards, consumed tasty pancakes prepared by sweet lil kelsey, we left Brisbane with high spirits...

Only to experience delays, lots of waiting, asking around, going to the wrong stop, asking around again, finally got onto the right bus, and reached our destination 2 hours later than we planned to... All because of err... wrong information provided by our Brissy friends... Haih...

Even so, we buckled up ourselves and rushed towards the colorful, fantasy land...

After some fun...

Disappointment stepped in...

We saw Tweety (the 1st mascot we came across), got super excited, and ran with all our might, only to be told when we reached our turn that Mr Tweety aint taking any more pictures as his session is OVER!!!

We were just like... WTH!

Then we looked around, and all the freaking mascots were GONE!!! You should have seen our expressions, we looked so... d.e.v.a.s.t.a.t.e.d... Almost in tears really, as we thought due to our unexpected delay, we missed the parade and photography session with the mascots... How can our trip in Movie World be perfect if we can't even take a picture with that cute, witty, yellow bird called Tweety???

After a while, we decided to kick some ass, and not feel sorry for ourselves anymore... So we tried to have fun...

Then............

I saw a hot lady, wrapped up in black latex, holding a whip, and posing on a black sedan...

"Babes!!! Catwoman is over there!!!!!!!!!!!"

I yelled so loudly, we shrieked in ecstasy, and we sped over not caring about our 'ladylike image'... *clears throat*

After that, things just got better and better...

don even know what they are... but at least they are in costumes! LOL...

and scooby-scooby doo......

we became the new prodigies of gotham city warriors...

Then it was time for the parade.. we waited at the centre court 30 minutes before the parade so that we could get a good spot... (ain't not gonna miss it for anything!)

The best part of the day...

When hunky Batman passed by, Poh Lin and I just screamed "Batman! Batman!" like freaking 14 year old girlish teens.... and... he turned around, looked at us, came over, and shook our hands!!! Gosh... I've never seen 21 year olds giggling in such pure delight, as this disapproving mom on the side watches the whole scenario... But hey, his lips does look hot k (well, we can't exactly see the rest of his parts...LOL)

...And that was Movie world ^o^

That same night, Nisa decided to teach us roller skating..

It was painfully fun.. oh well..

And there was a surprise after that. Nisa even prepared fireworks! OOOOoooo.... That's definitely a good host and party planner!

Of course we just have to have more craziness...

Hence, our day ended sparkling~

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Next day.
Itinenary: Shopping in Harbour Town.

Needless to say, it was kinda the best time we had throughout our trip... Well, which girl can refuse retail therapy? ooo... Bliss....

We were so occupied with our shopping that there was no time to take pictures... duh...

At least we managed to take a picture at the end of our shopping.. Can u believe, we shopped till the shop closes... Coz they closed freaking early! 5.30pm? Man... Missing late night shopping in Malaysia...

Then, our 'REAL' adventure began...

We got onto the train, sat comfortably, and was prepared for a long hour plus ride.. Some of us were dozing off, some were just listening to music...

Abracadabra... Pinky saw the 'concession officers' (I'm sure they have a proper title...lol) at the other carriage... And man, did we panic. It doesn't seem like the train was stopping anytime soon, and we definitely don't look like the pictures of our friends on the student id card (I'm sure we don't wear head scarves... hmmm...) We just went like 'oh my God (repeatedly)' and 'we're gonna get the fine!'

Then, a miracle happened.

The group of boys just before us seemed to have some problems with their tickets and hence the officers were slightly delayed from reaching me (as I was the nearest to the officers). And, the train stopped after 20 minutes of not stopping...

Without any cue, (erm.. Pinky did shouted 'let's get out..') we held fast to our shopping bags and ran out from the train, only to see we were joined by several youngsters as well... LOL... It was so obvious that we all had problems with our tickets... Hahahahahaha...

It was definitely a 'prison break moment' with all the intensity and excitement... we didn't care we had to wait for nearly 30 minutes for another train, we were just thankful that we excaped the FINE!

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Alas, another day came by.

Wira's friend - Christine and her aunt served as our host for the day.

They brought us to Mount Tamborine, Surfer's Paradise, and Christmas deco house watching.
I'm getting lazy..Lol... So just let the pictures tell the stories...

Mount Tamborine

Surfer's Paradise

and more craziness from the trio

what are pinkies for?

House watching

The day ended with Nisa's yummy laksa, and crazy karaoke session.. It was my last night, so we went all the way to enjoy that day.

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Finally, it was time to bid goodbye to my dearies...

The Trio will definitely make a comeback.

Till then... =)

Farewells are sad, people are leaving,
Yet memories last in minds of ours.
Hearts are glad, the future outing,
The day will come, sunshine or showers.

SHOUT 09! A Genesis Moment!

2009-04-12T21:23:00.005+12:00

Taking a break from retelling good ol oz trip... I felt immense urge and desire to jot down these life-changing words of wisdom, brought by powerful messengers of God in SHOUT conference 2009!

In 1 word, SHOUT conference was just... AWESOME!!!!!

The praise and worship was off the hook, the performances were beautiful, the preaching was powerful!

Many of us were messed up badly by the word of the Lord, but definitely in a radical but good way! Hahaha...

Ps Russell Evans from Planetshakers Australia started off with a powerful message, leaving us holding tightly to our seats, hearts thumping as the words of God shot right into our weak hearts...

His main message was, 'Who's IMAGE are we pursuing?'

IMAGE can be broken down into 'IM' 'AGE-ing'. Therefore, Our image is what we become as we age.

Hence, it is important for us to fill our 'image folder' with Kingdom image. Stop following the worldly cultures, but create Godly cultures for people to follow and be blessed.

Besides that, we learned about Worship, Walking with God, Running to Judah etc. My favourite preacher of all, would have to be Reggie Dabbs. He is the Man! He is so annointed, you just want to have even a tiny touch of what he has...... He's gifted, he's funny, he's down to earth, and most importantly, he used his talents for the purposes of God! One would not know how inspiring he is until one listens to him......... Seriously...

5 things he mentioned in one of his sermon..

1. Your existence precedes your conceptions.
2. Your future precedes your birth.
3. Your destiny precedes your knowing.
4. Your purpose precedes your shame.
5. Your salvation precedes your sins.

Don't let Christ's death be in vain, because of you. (Dabbs, 2009)

And as apostle Paul said, " I considered my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." (Acts 20:24); I hope I would be able to persevere through trials in life, and glorify the name of the Lord till the end~

Happy Easter to all! Rejoice, for our Lord has risen!

BRISSY!!!!!!!!!! Day 1

2009-04-07T11:31:00.006+12:00

Gosh!!!! Finally.... I get to blog about our trip in Brissy..... Hahahaha... Was literally waiting for the birth of this entry as our trip in Brisbane was way crazier...Partly because Super Pinky was fully onboard as well!!!!! Woosh!!!!!!! The Cucumber Gals were united once again! (still missing Mussita though... *sob*)

So, the supergals decided to rest their powers for later, and flew in Qantas...

This time we were prepared for a non-existent welcoming as Nisa asked us to take the train to errr... somewhere somewhere.... -.-''

Pinky with my LexLi

But... Nothing is ever smooth and nice for us when all of us are involved... We were in the line, asked the poor helpful guy tonnes of questions, finally decided on getting return tickets, about to pay for our tickets, then Nisa called Chong, telling her to take the cab instead...

There was a round of confusion and minor squabbling in front of the poor guy who had already printed out our tickets...

In the end, we put on our best puppy eyes, flashed our best smiles, apologized to the poor guy, then asked about the taxi stand...swt...............

Although that poor guy kept saying it's alright when we apologized... deep down inside we felt so bad because we knew we did get him into a little bit of trouble..... oopsie...

So we reached Kelvin Grove in one piece and was warmly welcomed by our lovely Nisa. After settling down, dumping our huge bags in our rooms, receiving our illegal concession cards, we stomped into the city!!!!

Hail King George!

First stop was lunch! Because we have Nisa with us, we had to find a halal place.. So we settled for this Malaysian restaurant which serve quite good mee goreng *slurp*.. Lunch was alright... No accidents and casualities... hahahaha..

Then it was time to jalan-jalan around the city...

To our pleasant surprise, Brisbane feels a lot like Malaysia... The hot climate, the buildings, the 'feel'.. Lol... We felt at home instantly...

and their casino looks damn cool from the outside...

unlike the boring auckland, places in Australia were well-decorated to welcome Christmas... But of course, nothing beats Asian countries that go all out to make everything fancy and spectacular...

The most part of our day was actually spent in this perfume shop!!! For some reason, their perfumes are damn cheap... like really really cheap!!!! err... you get it right... lol...

We were so spoilt for choices that we spent a good few hours in it.. Even if you're not a fan of fragrances, trust me, you will be looking around attentively to get some as gifts... So how cheap are they really? You can get a whole set of Revlon consmetics (Lipstick, eye shadow, and fragrance included) for a mere $15!!! 100 ml Hugo Boss fragrance gift set (with shaving foam and body lotion included) for $65!!!! Adidas fragrance for $10 and the list goes on and on... You will even find some slightly rare products like Celine Dion's line of body lotions...

And we came out with these...

mostly mine though, because I'm leaving for Auckland 2 days before they head off back to Sydney and I might missed my chance of getting my goodies... hehe..

After a few more stops here and there...

We met up with sweet Kelsey for some yummy pancakes...

Then some more walking and posing...

... we came to this errrr.... place.... to have some wicked chocolate drinks.....

and they were drunk... chocolate overload...lol...

That was our first day in Brissy... Still seem mild huh...

Wait for the next entry ;)

Last day in Sydney!!! 'Animals and Hotties' - Watchin'

2009-04-06T11:33:00.009+12:00

For this entry, I will let the pictures do most of the talking..Lol...

Once again, the gals embarked on their journey of surprises and fun..

They sailed across the sea to reach their destination... First Stop - Taronga Zoo~

After 20 minutes, they reached their 'home'.....

and found their long-lost family...

and had a reunion with cuddly Nana Koala...

Made a few new friends..

Then, it was time to bid goodbye... *sob*......

After 2 minutes of emoness........

BONDI BEACH!!!!!!!!! Here we come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the gals

the funeral service of the poor crab...

the camwhoring

the lucky NING-ko

the super lucky NING-ko

Chong-ee and I

All the pretty ladies

(who says we need to be clad in bikinis or few tiny pieces of cloth to look good on the beach?)

the 'mei tuis' (translation: Pretty legs)

the happy beach-goers

Yay!

After hard-out partying in the beach, its time to say goodbye... (the wind was getting really chilly too...)

while Wira gets away with nice and pretty poses....

They always ask me to do the silliest poses..... hahahahaha....

Well, the day ended with a great note...

Dinner was....

................. GREAT!!!!!!!!!!

Sydney - Day 4

2009-04-06T10:56:00.004+12:00

Day 4 was a slightly for relaxing day..

Popo had to work, so Chong-ee had to babysit Wira and I... And she did her job so well! *hugz*

We had fresh seafooooooooood... YUM!

We had some casino royale moments... (with the not-hot-but-a-bit-gatal security guy trying to flirt with us... -.-'')

This pic was taken by a poor guy whom we ambushed (he looked so shy and...somewhat scared... while his friends were busy giggling away...haih... what's so funny anyway?) outside the casino

We had some ridiculously cheap souvenir shopping (too busy buying stuff and neglected the camera..hehehe)

And, we rejoined Popo after work.. at Macquarie Centre...

*scratches head* what else happened??? Searching for traces of memories in this tiny brain of mine...........

The following is not in sequence...

We were scolded by the lady bus driver who got annoyed by the sudden screaming of the girls after i said something silly... She actually stopped the bus just to give us a word or two... goshhhh.... *malu siren ringing*

Wira was told off by an old man when we were about to leave KFC... To be exact, his words were 'your skirt can't get any shorter huh...' *malu siren ringing again*

Our bus was bombarded by 10... i repeat 10 transport officers (don't know what are they called exactly... Those that just hop in and out of buses to check whether passengers purchased the right tickets instead of mis-using concessions)..... Heng... We were safe....

Met Sabrina on our way back and she joined us in the bus... But due to Sabrina's over-enthusiasm in her story-telling, the lady who sat opposite her rose up to change her seat!!!!! *malu siren went crazy!!!!!*

aigoooo.... That's Day 4 for you

Sydney at its best! (Day 3)

2009-04-05T21:49:00.006+12:00

Finally, a day with pure good weather! Oh yeaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

It's time to make our presence known in the city!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All geared up, the girls started another wacky adventure of theirs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Guide To A Wholesome Sydney Exploration During Summer

First stop - The infamous harbour bridge and the opera house~

Lesson 1: Get a gelato

Lesson 2: Dress 'summery'

Lesson 3: Bring cameras and shoot away

Lesson 3.5: Do not say 'no' to an old couple who offered to take a picture of you even though you have companions who can do it for you... Just comply and make them happy...

photo taken by the kind old couple

Lesson 4: Don't be shy when posing for the camera.. No one knows you and no one cares... In the end, its the pictures taken, and the memories captured that matter.

Lesson 5: Apply TONNES of sunblock if you prefer vanilla rather than caramel~

Second Stop - the Park and the Church (Can't even remember the names....... uh ohh..)

Lesson 6: Master the umbrella and protect the skirt during windy days...

omg!!!

wira *turn around*
pinky *save ur ass*

Lesson 6.5: Do not talk about ass, panties, and holes loudly and shamelessly without realising an old man was chuckling away behind.............. -.-'''

Lesson 7: Pose for more pictures

Lesson 7.5: Wait for the hot-looking jogger and ask him to take picture for you ;)

pic taken by the shy, but hot guy... even though it didn't come out as good, it's the effort that matters ;)

Lesson 8: Just have fun and be silly =P

Third stop - the Restaurant! (if you haven't realised, i'm bad with names...)

Lesson 9: Camwhore while waiting for food

Lesson 10: Eat and be merry

Lesson 11: Go for a nice stroll after dinner

Lesson 12: Do not wear too 'summery' if you will be out till late... You might be the next marilyn monroe

Lesson 12.5: Do not curse about the weather and the skirts so loudly without realising a few passersby were laughing to their hearts' content...

Basically, that day has been a humiliating day at its best... We managed to humiliate ourselves so many times that we were even surprised by our ability to humiliate ourselves....... hahahahaha.... I guess only the girls will remember those moments for a long long while...............

Misadventures continue... Day 2

2009-04-05T17:02:00.009+12:00

After an unforgettable first day in Sydney, we started our new day with high spirits... that didn't seem to last long... just because the rain decided it's a wonderful day to visit the city with us... how nice......gahhhhhhhh....

Well, without dampening our spirits further, we had a lovely breakfast of deliciously-wicked brownies (baked with love by the babes), bread, ham, and a high dose of morning chatter.. Gosh, those were awesome moments... and we were LOUD.... hahahaha....

After that, we had a mini send off for Diren, our 'macho-looking-but-can't- help-dropping-a-tear-or-two' senior... In another 8 months or less, that would be us.... double gahhhssssss....

After the 'emoness', we headed of to the city, which is approximately 1 hour away... *woohoo on the outside, grumbling in the inside*

Since God decided to further test our patience before allowing us to act all mad in OZ by sending Mr Rain, our choices became seemingly limited... So we explored Queen Victoria Building, a super-chio shopping mall, with a touch of victorian feel (trying to talk classy here... hahaha...)

The best part of the mall trip was the super-duper chio swaroski christmas tree!!! Imagine a four or five storey high Christmas tree decorated with swaroski crystals, looking all bling bling and inviting...

Straight away i went into my lulu mood and wanted to 'steal', errrr ... 'have a closer look' at the crystals before Super Popo held me back and pointed at the bunch of cctv surrounding the tree.........................Mission failed.. *sulks*

The worst part of the mall trip...... everything is bloody expensive!!!!!!!!!!!! Since we're not born as trust fund babies, neither have any socialites potential, we decided to acknowledge our modest position, and pass by those shops with ..errr.... style...................

After feeling frustrated for not being able to shop without a care..*chuckles*... we went to the sydney aquarium! Remember people... it was raining mercilessly.............

To our pleasant surprise, the aquarium turned out fun after all!

ANd for some reason, Super Popo and Super Chong-ee switched to pro photographers mode and decided to do a documentary on fish and sea life....... *shakes head looking at Super Popo trying to snap a perfect picture of the mischevious clown fish as she was technically kneeling down and switching various positions just to 'catch up' with that 'finding nemo' fish............ hahaha........

After a day with sharks, corals, starfish and sting rays............ we were FAMISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We looked like starving zombies, with Super Wira eyeing the popcorn stall lustfully............lol...... So we met up with Ning Ko, and walked to our food paradise (have i mentioned that we walked a LOT for the whole day? And those places are not even near to each other............)

The korean bbq and seafood pancake were lovely.... the hot guy nearby was lovely too......... lol....

But my oh my, if cost of living in Auckland is high...... Sydney is crazier..... our standard price for eating out is roughly 10 bucks each, but theirs is double the price... *calculating currency change some more....... aigoooo*

Somehow day 2 ended rather peacefully....... hmm...... does that mean our adventures are gonna take a nice turn now? *fingers-crossed...*

The Misadventures of the Five Super Gals - Day 1

2009-04-05T14:39:00.010+12:00

Had a lovely start for the day today, so was in the mood to blog... while savouring prefectly sweet, seedless, Chile grapes, I was flicking through my many photos of my OZ trip... *pause*... aha... Thus i found the topic of my new entry!

To start off, let me just give a brief background information about the purpose of the trip.

Well, long long time ago (4 years to be precise..lol), a group of 130 innocent beings were caught and trained in this secret faculty called IPBA...
In order to make us into tough individuals, they put us in termites-infested apartments, cramping 12-14 of us in a dorm with only 2 working toilets.

In order to make us fast, they post time sheets on the special wall at random hours, and have us push around, run through shortcuts, and play dirty just to put our names on our preferred time slots.

To promote survival of the fittest, they cramp all assignments due dates to a same period of time, and have us struggle and fight our fatigue, and see who can survive....

Well, amidst those trials and tribulations, a group of girls stood together, side by side, helping each other through those inhumane experiences...

BUT!!!! These group of girls, were later separated into two different continents of the world, just because the "Administrators" sensed their strength and power... and ability to lead a rebelion...

Even so, distance was never a problem... Not especially when girl powers are involved... This is a story of how powers were united, chaos were created, when Super Wira and Super Lulu, flew over 2153.61km to rejoin Super Chong-ee, Super Popo, and Super Pinky!!!!

Introducing... the main characters...

from the city of sails,
Super Wira Super Lulu (me ;p ) from the harbour city,

Super Chong-ee

Super Popo and Super Pinky _______________________________________________________________ Let the tales of the misadventures begin.... Day 1

Super Wira and Super Lulu were super excited!!! The thoughts of painting the town red with the gals drove their adrenaline high... and images of seeing the girls shriek and wave frantically in the airport, put smiles on their faces....

Or so they thought...

They reached the airport with beaming smiles... Went to the nearest toilet to freshen up.. Then marched to the arrival hall in style........

"Eh, mana pompuan-pompuan tu???" ...

Instead of a fantasy welcoming like this...

... we had strange stares from people holding cards written with "Welcome Caroline" or some random korean names.... *clears throat*.... Couldn't have been better...

Later, Super Lulu decided to text Super Chong-ee... And within minutes, some estatic screaming voices were blaring from my phone...

To cut the story short, the girls were happy that we arrived, they apologized for being late due to train delays, they reassured us that they love us to bits, they tried to coax us to wait for 1 more hour, and they tried to bribe us with a free Mcdonald meal...... hahahahaha.... Oh well, there's nothing we could do, but to bitch about them being so mean to us while waiting....

and camwhoring seems to be a fun activity.... followed by spacing out....

well... they did arrived after 1 hour.... and they were like waving, and screaming, and being all excited... while the two of us were just staring at them lazily from our seats.... *hmmm... seems like the roles had been reversed..lol*

But still, we managed to fill the trains and the buses with our loud, sampat, Manglish throughout our journey to Marsfield... To be honest, Super Wira and Super Lulu has actually turned mild and civilised during their stay in Auckland (due to the influence of their super goodey seniors), but the other girls didn't seem to have change much (looking at Diren, its pretty much understandable)... and we actually got a cultural shock...hahahaha.....

So for the first night, it was just about settling down for the day...

Super Chong-ee and Super Popo cooked up a feast for us...

and we thought the day would end peacefully........

or so i thought.......

That night was raining heaviliy and it got pretty chilly at night... So Super Lulu decided to turn on the heater in Iner's room (we managed to have a room each cause our babes, Iner and Farizah are in Brisbane and lent us their beautiful rooms)...

Little did i know that the heater was actually faulty... some burning smell came out of it... and the next thing i know... the freaking FIRE ALARM was blaring like nobody's business!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super Lulu was panicking as her friends were like staying a few blocks away and she kept having pictures of fire engines surrounding her room and a big whip of 2000 bucks will be gone just like that.... it was definitely NOT COOL............

Super Lulu tried to grab her senses and frantically opened up all d windows to let the smoke disperse, pulled out the heater from the power, n fanned the smoke detector...Finally d crazily loud alarm stopped after 10 not-so-cool minutes... when Super Lulu called up Super Chong-ee, she apologized for forgetting to inform about the heater.... At least my 2000 bucks were still safely intact with me......

And I couldn't sleep in peace that night...............

What a way to start of our misadventures........ hahahahahaha......... And that was just Day One.... ;)

In need of chocolates!!!

2009-03-26T18:34:00.004+13:00

I have been squeezing my brain juices mercilessly......

Straining my eyes without contempt....
Clicking on the 'word count' button repetitively.......

Damn!

No chocolates on sight! *horror*
Double the pain!

Hmm... Maybe drinking a glass of cold refreshing New Zealand milk might help....

*glurp*....

*paused for a moment*.....

Ahhhhh!!!!! I still need my sugar rush!!!!!!!

the mind took a drastic detour into the cadbury chocolate factory in Dunedin where I met my new best friend, Willy Wonka.....

Basically, that's how my day have been for the whole day...

Well at least I have 900 words done.... *phew, thank you Jesus*

Chapter One: The Lulu

2009-03-23T17:58:00.007+13:00

I guess I'm in the mood to write... Can't say the same for my assignments though.. It's weird how after emptying my bowels in the toilet for quite a while and you have all these crazy zest coming in.. Must be the crazy works of losing substantial fluid... *coughs* too much information? Lol..

So, I decided that this blog needs an introduction of the author.. Because.... Well, just because... =P

Since young, my family have faithfully called me Lulu.

Not because I'm of ringleader potential, and am always up to mischief like Little Lulu (hmm... maybe there's some connection to it)

But rather because of its "clumsy person" connotation... *Grandma claims that it is a hokkien saying*

as i often tripped... even without any obstacles seen...

screwed up the most basic thing...

did the unspeakable... and usually ended up entertaining everyone with my special stunt @_@

For example, I once put my specs into the washing machine with my laundry... Don't ask me why... i just wasn't thinking k... hahahaha

Well...at least..

Fergie managed to make clumsy people like me feel glamorous and beautiful... Although I know her definition meant something totally different... hahaha... Just trying to live in blatant denial...

Somehow my 'luluness' doesn't seem to get better with age... No matter how much more mature, independent, and careful I tend to claim myself as, I can't stop surprising myself with the extend of 'luluness' i'm capable of doing. Let's not go into too much detail... Lol..

The funny thing was, this nick name of mine never follow me to high schools or uni... My friends happily called me 'bakchi' - the silly one (it has no negative connotations k), filifele (just to annoy me) and fish-ia (to annoy me to the fullest... haha... you know who you are). Yet, the main reason was, a dear friend of mine had 'Lulu' copyrighted before me... Well, her name is Lucille, and even on the first day of getting to know her, she introduced herself as Lulu... Gahhh... there goes my favorite nickname... hahahaha...

That's me and Lucille (on the right) during Tsf Camp in 2006

So why am I bringing 'Lulu' out of closet again? Just simply because it fits me best, and Lucille is in Wellington instead of Auckland.. and I could be the first Lulu in Auckland!!!!!! *silly laughter*

I know I'm quite full of myself at this moment... hahahaha... just being Felicia, the lulu *winks*

Prologue

2009-03-23T16:45:00.012+13:00

Shrugging her shoulders, she took her seat... staring away aimlessly at the computer screen... thoughts came in and out of her mind.. without any cue, without any focus... She tied up her hair as the fringes were starting to get rather annoying... With Lady Gaga's Poker Face blasting from her lappy, she gave a sigh... and started typing...

"Gosh.... Another attempt on blogging.. Would it last? Or will my fire be put off before the sparkles manage to lit up a bonfire??? Hahahahaha... Instead of playing with my pens, and staring at my not-yet-keen-to-start assignment, I guess I will just give it a shot... Once more..."

So, I'm Felicia. If you haven't noticed... Lol... And welcome to this humble blog of mine... Many a time, i pride myself as an open book... Judging from the amounts of photos and details I have on my facebook or friendster account, my openess in conversations, and of course with this public blog that is gonna scream secrets of me... i'm not exactly an introvert... =P

Even so, I can't help but ponder is this ever the real me? Have I ever been honest to people around me.. Or rather to myself? Was I just trying to live up to my name? *explanation: Felicia means the happy one* Was I trying to fulfill expectations of me? Was I playing dumb to or acting tough to be accepted? Hmmmmmm.... Too much thinking hurts the poor brain cells of mine... *smirks*

I used to have a blog. Eventually I stopped because too many things were happening in my life, and I was literally a character in any soap drama series on TV... Just that I did not have the priviledge to have take-twos and threes, and I never seemed to be able to cry as gracefully as Song Hye Gyo or chuckle as charismatic as Anne Hathaway.. *pouts*

That's not even the main point.. with highly computer-literate parents as mine who have facebook accounts and read my blog, censorship is well well well-needed... Lol... *I can sense a phone call coming later.. Hahahaha..*

Don't get me wrong, i love my parents to bits.. literally ...

Aren't they the cutest thing ever *wink*

Anyway, I'm excited about how this blog will develop.. So, explore me... with me ;)

Felicia's Open Book of Puzzles and Mazes

Moving On!

Dreams~

My dad says the darnest thing! ;)

New start..*breathes in*... ahh...

Risen from the dead.... *creeps*

Shamelessness Alert!

Glamming up to meet the GG

yada yada yada

In need of releasing stress...lol

T.T

Deep and Serious thoughts... *not good for the brain...lol*

Who am I?

My 'Double Two' Celebration~

Unable to breathe...

It's definitely worth it ;)

Insanity struck!

Sinfully-delicious thoughts

In hopes of smoothing the bumpy patches...

Granting a 'wish'...

metamorphosis of 'the happy one'...

Rumba rumba~

Wake up call, by a feisty woman!

Last entry on OZ adventures

SHOUT 09! A Genesis Moment!

BRISSY!!!!!!!!!! Day 1

Last day in Sydney!!! 'Animals and Hotties' - Watchin'

Sydney - Day 4

Sydney at its best! (Day 3)

Misadventures continue... Day 2

The Misadventures of the Five Super Gals - Day 1

In need of chocolates!!!

Chapter One: The Lulu

Prologue

New start..breathes in... ahh...

Risen from the dead.... creeps

Deep and Serious thoughts... not good for the brain...lol