Thursday, March 26, 2009

In need of chocolates!!!


I have been squeezing my brain juices mercilessly......
Straining my eyes without contempt....
Clicking on the 'word count' button repetitively.......

Damn!

No chocolates on sight! *horror*
Double the pain!


Hmm... Maybe drinking a glass of cold refreshing New Zealand milk might help....



*glurp*....

*paused for a moment*.....

Ahhhhh!!!!! I still need my sugar rush!!!!!!!

the mind took a drastic detour into the cadbury chocolate factory in Dunedin where I met my new best friend, Willy Wonka.....




Basically, that's how my day have been for the whole day...

Well at least I have 900 words done.... *phew, thank you Jesus*

Monday, March 23, 2009

Chapter One: The Lulu

I guess I'm in the mood to write... Can't say the same for my assignments though.. It's weird how after emptying my bowels in the toilet for quite a while and you have all these crazy zest coming in.. Must be the crazy works of losing substantial fluid... *coughs* too much information? Lol..

So, I decided that this blog needs an introduction of the author.. Because.... Well, just because... =P

Since young, my family have faithfully called me Lulu.

Not because I'm of ringleader potential, and am always up to mischief like Little Lulu (hmm... maybe there's some connection to it)


But rather because of its "clumsy person" connotation... *Grandma claims that it is a hokkien saying*

as i often tripped... even without any obstacles seen...


screwed up the most basic thing...


did the unspeakable... and usually ended up entertaining everyone with my special stunt @_@

For example, I once put my specs into the washing machine with my laundry... Don't ask me why... i just wasn't thinking k... hahahaha

Well...at least..


Fergie managed to make clumsy people like me feel glamorous and beautiful... Although I know her definition meant something totally different... hahaha... Just trying to live in blatant denial...

Somehow my 'luluness' doesn't seem to get better with age... No matter how much more mature, independent, and careful I tend to claim myself as, I can't stop surprising myself with the extend of 'luluness' i'm capable of doing. Let's not go into too much detail... Lol..

The funny thing was, this nick name of mine never follow me to high schools or uni... My friends happily called me 'bakchi' - the silly one (it has no negative connotations k), filifele (just to annoy me) and fish-ia (to annoy me to the fullest... haha... you know who you are). Yet, the main reason was, a dear friend of mine had 'Lulu' copyrighted before me... Well, her name is Lucille, and even on the first day of getting to know her, she introduced herself as Lulu... Gahhh... there goes my favorite nickname... hahahaha...

That's me and Lucille (on the right) during Tsf Camp in 2006

So why am I bringing 'Lulu' out of closet again? Just simply because it fits me best, and Lucille is in Wellington instead of Auckland.. and I could be the first Lulu in Auckland!!!!!! *silly laughter*

I know I'm quite full of myself at this moment... hahahaha... just being Felicia, the lulu *winks*

Prologue

Shrugging her shoulders, she took her seat... staring away aimlessly at the computer screen... thoughts came in and out of her mind.. without any cue, without any focus... She tied up her hair as the fringes were starting to get rather annoying... With Lady Gaga's Poker Face blasting from her lappy, she gave a sigh... and started typing...

"Gosh.... Another attempt on blogging.. Would it last? Or will my fire be put off before the sparkles manage to lit up a bonfire??? Hahahahaha... Instead of playing with my pens, and staring at my not-yet-keen-to-start assignment, I guess I will just give it a shot... Once more..."

So, I'm Felicia. If you haven't noticed... Lol... And welcome to this humble blog of mine... Many a time, i pride myself as an open book... Judging from the amounts of photos and details I have on my facebook or friendster account, my openess in conversations, and of course with this public blog that is gonna scream secrets of me... i'm not exactly an introvert... =P


Even so, I can't help but ponder is this ever the real me? Have I ever been honest to people around me.. Or rather to myself? Was I just trying to live up to my name? *explanation: Felicia means the happy one* Was I trying to fulfill expectations of me? Was I playing dumb to or acting tough to be accepted? Hmmmmmm.... Too much thinking hurts the poor brain cells of mine... *smirks*

I used to have a blog. Eventually I stopped because too many things were happening in my life, and I was literally a character in any soap drama series on TV... Just that I did not have the priviledge to have take-twos and threes, and I never seemed to be able to cry as gracefully as Song Hye Gyo or chuckle as charismatic as Anne Hathaway.. *pouts*

That's not even the main point.. with highly computer-literate parents as mine who have facebook accounts and read my blog, censorship is well well well-needed... Lol... *I can sense a phone call coming later.. Hahahaha..*

Don't get me wrong, i love my parents to bits.. literally ...

Aren't they the cutest thing ever *wink*


Anyway, I'm excited about how this blog will develop.. So, explore me... with me ;)